i haven't had the energy to code. i haven't had the energy to be on nekoweb or neocities. i'm not having a bad time really, but i just. don't feel the same passion i used to.
i love coding, i really do. but i opened up the oscwr, and i was really happy with it, but i began feeling overwhelmed by the amount of applications i was getting. responding to emails became a hassle, and owning it started to feel less and less fun. it didn't help that i was dedicating a lot of my time to making new shrines, though some are barebones and the rest are unfinished. juggling my boundless shrine ideas (with zero creativity or drive to work on them) and incoming webring applications felt less like a fun thing to do on the side and more like a chore. i haven't coded anything new in months.
i want to have fun with coding again, i really do, but it's been hard. it's my fault that i lost my drive, and i hope i can pick it up again soon.
(taken from blog.)